I have no confidence and I wish i was a blonde?

I seriously can't stand it anymore, my life seems so worthless, I'm not an emo depressed person, i' a seior in high school, i play various sports and have amazing friends and family but it comes down to loving myself...i'm always thinking that the gr is much greener on the other side. I'm indian american. I wish i was white and blonde, they seem to have it so miuch better, they can literally get any guy and they always get all the attention. I'm doing powderpuff football and they literally run everything, i feel like a bag full of **** when i'm around them. Guys are always hitting on them and they are never single...freaking, they never even have to try, everything just comes naturally. They are beautiful and have this angelic auro to them no matter how trashy. And here I am, indian and blan. Eff my life, I seriously feel like i have no self esteem when I'm around blondes.